Sometimes you may read a book which you wish you could have written – because it tells your story or it doesn’t. In Why be Happy when you could be Normal? Jeannette Winterson has written a memoir of adoption which is both universal and utterly unique.
Unique: Whilst she is not alone in having a violent and abusive mother and a silent, disengaged father (“He had never talked much, him being clumsy and unsure with language.” “….he didn’t fight for me”), her adoptive mother, Mrs Winterson, with her sadistic blend of violence, withdrawal and Pentecostal religion is monstrous beyond belief, ‘she was a monster but she was my monster’.
The one good thing about being shut in a coalhole is that it prompts reflection.
Universal: The adoptee’s fear of abandonment, of never being loved enough, of never really, really being wanted (“How do you trust another person to love you? I had no idea . I thought love was loss”). She speaks of having 2 failed families – the birth family and the adoptive family – “the first one was not my fault but all adopted children blame themselves”
Adoption begins on your own – you are solitary. The baby knows it has been abandoned
And literature saved her life: It isn’t a hiding place. It is a finding place. Fiction and poetry are doses, medecines. What they heal is the rupture reality makes on the imagination.
It’s a quest story but ultimately a redemption story – of becoming ‘because’ not ‘despite’
Journal prompt
“We need better stories about adoption”
Do you have an adoption story to tell?
Adopted children are self-invented because they have to be….adoption drops you into the story after it has started . It’s like reading a book with the first few pages missing…..The feeling that something is missing never, ever leaves you…..
BUT The missing part, the missing past, can be an opening, not a void.
What are the first few pages of your story?
This BBC programme about Part’s Spiegel im Spiegel has been brought to my attention (thank you) : http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b013q20t
The final interview with a visual artist tells a very relevant story.
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Thank you, Carry. I’m sure your son is sustained by your belief in him even if he can’t believe in himself so explicitly.
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Kate, your words touched my heart as did the book, I wish my adopted son could believe in himself as much as I believe in him
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Jenny, I first read Oranges in 1985 and have followed her writing ever since. I have found something to like or admire or think about in all her work and the scope of her writing is breathtaking (physics, Handel, social commentary, myth etc – the list goes on). But this one is particularly inspiring.
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Thank you, Linda. It’s always good to have more recommended books on these topics.
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Karen, yes, it’s powerful and even more so when in the hands of such a good writer as Jeanette Winterson
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I read this book recently as well, after revisiting ‘Oranges are not the only fruit’ – as a writer, I found the difference between them very interesting – both, in their own ways, really impressive and inspiring. Highly recommended.
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Thank you Kate, what you wrote and shared just takes my breath away…
Another book I just finished and loved is The Language of Flowers…similar venue…wonderful insight into the psychology of children who are in foster care.
Linda
Linda W. Peterson-St. Pierre Ph.D
Emeritus Professor, University of Nevada School of Medicine
Marriage and Family Therapist #0025
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http://DrLindaWPeterson.com
A life lived more for significance than success, is the best life of all!
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Powerful stuff.
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